I Am Too Much

I feel like I am alone, yet here is the real kicker I am NEVER alone.

I feel like I have too much to say. I am definitely “The One that Overwhelms” right now.

I have tons and tons of friends, but I don’t know where they are, not the ones in which I cannot overwhelm, at least not the ones who want to talk to me. Some did die. Perhaps I can talk to them?

I mean sure they want to talk to me – I am talking about the living ones now. They probably want to talk about this or that, and they want to be with me, just to be next to me, I guess. Petty Bee and Tiddle Doo.

I can feel when I am getting here – to this point – where the little hot pot SCREAMS

I need a healthy conversation, lacking ridiculousness, before she blows.

I don’t what discuss what could be, what was,or this or that conspiracy theory.

I want to discuss passionately what IS. I want to be able to express, and feel, and commiserate.

I want to share in this question. Is this even real, Or is this like last time and it is not even real?

I turn this way to talk, and he is so stressed they cannot discuss it because secretly they stress deep down; they think of 10 years come and gone, and

Then the Greyhounds come to round up all the poor circus freaks and geeks.

I turn to her and she won’t listen or disuss it. She seeps stress as she is pulled taught like the rag doll between Bubby and Sissy. Who loves her more.? Which one is crazier? Which one will really never leave her?

All she knows is she hates politics, and thinks it is of no concern to her, so “please just stop.”

I turn to them, and they want to tell me who drives the drones that fly above the river, and that the government is made of Lizards and they won’t back down. We are doomed. Doomed, they say, and “you may have a demon on you. “

F.U.C.K.

I think once I can vent her out she won’t snap into rambling, gibberish, itchy spasms of lore.

Is this just a game, an unreal thing? Or do I need to prepare for a passport? An escape from this place that I have no fucking idea how to escape from.

I will definitely not fight for it.